Hey Everyone, It's been a long time since I've updated. I guess I just needed some time to clear my head. The truth is, I'm still hurt inside after what happened, although I do feel better && I am trying to get over it. The only problem is that these strange things keep happening to me, that makes it hard for me to forget about him. But before I get into that, I have to say that I did try to call him (I mean we did agree that we're still friends && everything, and I don't want our friendship to end. Even he said that to me before we started dating) The first time I called, his dad answered && he seemed pretty excited to hear from me, he told me that Nathan wasn't there and that he would let him know that I called. Although, I didn't request that he called me back. The second time I called, was about... a week later because I didn't feel like bombarding him with calls, it just doesn't seem right. That's when I got the answer machine && I left a message saying that I hope he had a nice summer && if he could call me back when ever he gets the chance than that would be great.
Then the weird things started happening. I can't remember what day but it was after my second phone call to him that I came home from the library with my mom && the daycare kids, my grandma has said that a "Private Name. Private Number" had called me when I was away. Since that is what comes up when Nathan calls me, then It must have been him since no other person I know calls our house with their name && number private. Soon after I had gotten another call from a PNPN, this time It was a girl on the phone && she was pretending to be selling motels or something. I thought it was one of my friends, so I let it go. But, to think of it, none of my friends have a PNPN. So it was strange. Then whenever I was sorting out my CD's in my bedroom (since I have so many burned ones that I have no idea what are on them) my mom knocked on my door && she told me that a PNPN called && when she answered they just hung up on her. I then had the phone in my room and soon enough they called again. I answered it && just kept saying "Hello?" && I could hear some girl laughing in the background. They hung up on me && then called back, I was pretty pissed off at the time so when I answered, well.. here's the convo -->
"Hello" I said
"Hello!!"
"Okay, who the hell is this?"
"This is Kelly."
"Kelly?!"
"Yeah."
"Well.. why are you calling me?"
"Because I want to be friends."
"Uuh..Huh.."
"Do you hate me?"
"No... No, I never -hated- you"
And that was the truth, I never hated her. I was just mad at her because she broke up a really great relationship && an awesome friendship (apparently since he hasn't called me)
"I thought you hated me!" I quickly added.
"Oh, no."
Silence.
"Well, I have to go I'm watching my brother && I can't be on the phone" I lied, then I hung up.
I can't believe it, Kelly was calling me this whole time with the PNPN!! I was so upset that I called Nathan && left a message. Things were going through my mind like what if she as at his house or are they going out now.. but she did call around 10 at night, so I don't think she would be allowed at his house..
Or would she..
This is what I said on his machine --> "Hii Nathan, this is Camey. Look I'm really really sorry for calling you this late but, I had just gotten a phone call from Kelly Afaloter(sp?) && she's been calling my house for awhile now && hanging up. Now, I'm not sure HOW she had gotten my phone number since my number isn't in the phonebook. I'm not accusing you of anything but, I know that we both agreed on being friends it's just that, I have no idea what's going on && it's really bothering me. So, please call me back whenever you get the chance because I want to make this right. Okay, bye."
.. I haven't recieved a call yet and it's been almost a week. It would be neat if he called on my birthday (July 5th) But, I'm trying to forget about him.
I mean, If we're not ment to be "together" than why does my heart tell me that we are?
(Wow, poetic.) | 
